Friday, December 30, 2011


My new FAVORITE moisturizer, Aveeno Positively Ageless with SPF 30 sunblock in it. I use this every day, and the lines on my forehead have slowly went away! Plus, my skin has never looked so nice and smooth and i don't have to worry about putting sunblock on on top of my moisturizer which is one thing less off my mind!

Weigh In on the scale at least a few times a week, usually before breakfast so that it sets my food mood for the rest of the day guilting me into trying to NOT be tempted to eat the crap my mom buys like "Philly Fluff cake", "Chocolate Covered Pretzels", and the many other assortments of cookies and such in the house.

Sometimes i wonder if when i move out, if weight-loss will be easier because i wouldn't have the temptation of eating all the junk my mom buys because sometimes i cant just say no to it.
It gets really hard sometimes, I'm a fat kid at heart and my weakness is chocolate.

It's like the chocolate hypnotizes my mind, and tells me subliminal messages,
"Eat me!! I taste and smell delicious, you know you want some. Just have a LITTLE piece" 
& As all dieters know, you CAN'T just have one LITTLE piece of something you love.
Unless you have the best self control ever.
I use an online application to "plan out the day" of meals to help with my weight loss goals.
I try to get the food groups out of the way and to make sure i have a minimum allowed amount for my age height and weight for calcium, protein, vitamin c, vitamin a & iron because i think they are most essential for over all health.

I don't follow the actual Atkins diet, i just use their food pyramid as a starting point. Years ago, my dad lost 70 pounds in a year on the Atkins diet, but i found it slightly un-healthy. I just use it as a basis, and i use a free online application called, it's like a food diary.

I try to have lower levels of groups like; sodium, fat and carbohydrate intakes to hopefully aid in the fight to lose some weight.
Salt makes me bloated & too much is bad for your heart health. I also believe that high amounts of sodium in a diet, are the leading cause of Heart Disease, High Blood Pressure among many other diseases that are plaguing people in the United States.
Carbs are in everything i just try not to go over board with them like some people eat huge heros 3 times a day, that cant be healthy especially if you dont exercise. If not burned off and used as fuel for the body, carbohydrates only turn into sugar which turns into fat.
I try to eat lean meats for protein like lean beef lean pork chicken turkey fish and i have red meat sometimes just try to have lean cuts with less fat on them.
But i do eat healthy fats like almond butter, avocado, olive oil and stuff just not EVERY day.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

New year

I hope 2012 will end up being a better year then 2011 and well every year before that.
I try to remain optimistic.....

Saturday, December 24, 2011


I had some really nasty customers yesterday, im sure today will be worse. thankfully tomorrow im off, first sunday ive been off in a while.

They mooved me from a regular land to an express yesterday, because she had to go home and they needed express lanes open i guess. It started to get busy i started to get a line and all of a sudden, security came over to my register and started saying to this OLD bitchy lady;

Security: "Ma'am, I saw you take cream cheese out of your bag and switch it on the shelf. If you want to do returns or exchanges, you have to go to customer service. Just to let you know, it's technically shoplifting so if you do it again its shoplifting. & you put a out dated on on the shelf, i need it back you can take your old one back"
Old Lady: "Are you talking to ME?"
Security: "I'm looking RIGHT at you, YES i am talking to you. Oh, and charge her for a roll because she ate a roll and she wasn't going to tell you."
Old Lady: "How dare you! You don't know what your talking about, that's NOT shoplifting... i paid for it!! & you didn't give me a chance to tell her I ate a roll!!"
Security: "Ma'am, it is technically shoplifting because you took it upon yourself to exchange products on our shelf without our knowledge and you did it with outdated product. you could have made someone sick. Customer service is here, to return and exchange products you can't do it yourself or everyone would. I'm just warning you, if you do it again it's shoplifting."

I would have DIED of embarrassment if i were her.!! But she's obviously done this stuff before because they wouldn't just flip out over cream cheese and a roll, it's only like 2$ for both. Fucking old people.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

City Adventures

I went to the city Saturday with my boyfriend & we met up with my co-worker and her friends to see the tree at Rockefeller Center.

My boyfriend and I went early to have lunch and a few drinks. A pitcher of beer, 2 appetizers, hamburgers and fries, half a cupcake shaped like a hamburger later.... plus my boyfriend had a "Campfire" milkshake that had torched marshmallows on top, and added makers mark to it. Luckily I'm lactose intolerant so i only tasted a very small sip of it. 90$ later for LUNCH.... damn Manhattan is pricey!!

We walked from Penn Station to the resturant. Needless to say, by the end of lunch I wanted to walk more to walk off my caloric lunch! Well, we had skipped breakfast so I was starving...

My co-worker and her friends were awesome!! We got a little lost trying to find them in a sea of so many people awing at the tree, and it was freezing out. People were using their kids as weapons to get closer to the tree it was very claustrophobic with all of the people standing so close together. A little kid punched my boyfriend in the back and laughed as he went by. I gave my boyfriend permission to trip the kid if he came back and did it again hahaha. But, we saw the tree. I mean it was cool i don't think id go through the hassle again unless i had kids and they wanted to see it.
We eventually all met up at Rockefeller and made our way and walked to Times Square. & From Times Square, we went into several restaurants because they wanted to eat dinner but obviously didn't want to wait for 2+ hours for a table at like Hard Rock Cafe and places like that.

We eventually ended up at Red Lobster, my boyfriend and i were still pretty full from lunch so we just shared a main dish and we ordered a bunch of alcoholic drinks.... 90$ later.... -_-. Manhattan is EXPENSIVE!!
It was worth it though, we had a really good time getting to know each other bullshitting and stuff. I had an awesome time, it's like we all knew each other for a long time.

Our waiter at Red Lobster was talking to my boyfriend about the band Korn, it was so random he didn't seem like he would be into that band but he was a cool waiter. I didn't like though how Red Lobster added an 18% gratuity onto the bill so i didn't think it was necessary to leave cash since he already had a built in 12$ tip.

Not only that, but any chain in Manhattan seems to double the price of the same chain out here. A cesar salad in Manhattan was $18.99 and if you wanted to add chicken or shrimp it was another $10.99 i don't think anything on the menu was under $10.

In Penn Station towards the end of the night my boyfriend and I were knocking back beers & this weird homeless looking guy who was drooling asked us for a quarter. I don't know what he wanted with a quarter, but i just wanted to get away from him because he smelled bad and was drooling all over the place.

All in all, it was an awesome night and my co-worker agreed her and her friends had a blast and we all want to do it again so I'm excited :] my boyfriend has a hard time getting a long with people, and he was like this was awesome i had so much fun they were really cool I'd definitely hang out with them again. so yay, I'm happy :D

The Nightmare Before Christmas

So glad i finished my holiday shopping early, i mean the malls and the stores STILL look packed!! I can't i get claustrophobic with all those people standing so close looking at the same thing you are, I'm not going to fight someone over a product. I'd rather just give gift cards at that point.
I find it very hard to get into the holidays this year since i work a lot, and barely even make 200$ a week. Between taxed and everything, even if i made 300$ a week, How are people supposed to live on that?! How am i supposed to make ends meet on that shit salary?? The cost of living today is much more expensive then it ever has been.
I can't believe that Hanukkah started yesterday, the year has gone by SO fast!!
Did I mention that I'm Jewish and my boyfriend is Protestant? It's not a bad thing, we learn about each others religions a little bit at a time, were both not VERY into religion to be honest... maybe it will change when we get married and have kids?
We both don't practice religion so we just celebrate both holidays. Christmas eve is Saturday night followed by Christmas day Sunday and before we know it, it's going to be a New Year!! It's crazy and scary how fast time can just pass you by...

Monday, December 19, 2011

Why did you take my picture?

So, all the guys in my cooking class are creeps. The old man that doesn't stop talking, took my picture last class. He was like "im going to take everyones picture" and he didnt.... im offically creeped out.
I told my teacher about it and she was like um stay on my side of the table next class and don't talk to him do you think hes going to stalk you?! i hope not...

Plus, he doesn't bring most of the ingredients so he takes mine without asking and my teacher noticed and was like "if you dont have the ingredients next class, your not cooking. no more sharing"
Which is awesome because this guy was really starting to piss me off then he yelled at me and was like "way to rat me out" im like the teacher has eyes and you keep taking all my shit without asking i shouldn't have to pay for your supplies when their supposed to be mine. I was getting so mad i was getting warm physically.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


I feel like the closer to the holidays we get, the crazier and meaner the customers are becoming.

A lady accused me of ruining her salmon today.... all i did was try to ring it up. what a cunty asshole, i wanted to punch her in the face.
"OMG YOUR MESSING UP MY SALMON!! UGHHH!!!" ok psycho. Plus she wanted EVERYTHING double bagged, including one loaf of bread. your obnoxious lady. she was able to lift 2 liter sodas, but not a bag of produce and flipped out that i made it so heavy... ok psycho bitch.

I literally wanted to go over the counter and choke her. stupid bitch. i swear there was a full moon of crazies out today.
I had more crazy people but i dont really feel like typing it all out right now, so drained.

Monday, December 12, 2011

New neighboors sucks

Crappy week! My new neighbor's daughter hit my car last tuesday and drove away and didn't say anything. luckily another neighbor saw it happened and called my house!!
My dad and I went over to the house that night to tell the mom and she looked annoyed and scared.
the daughter ended up leaving a note in the mail box the next day saying she didnt know she hit my car and to not think she was a horrible young adult.
WTF?! how do you NOT know you hit a car?!
Anyway, we said we'd get an estimate on how much it will cost to fix. I think im going to need a whole new front bumper because its all one piece.
So ive been busy with work all week i havent had a chance to get it looked at. so the mom gives me an attitude this morning and was like "when are you going to let me know because i dont need this hanging over my head for the holidays."
im like well ive been working every day im sorry i'll have to ask my dad and see whats going on. i wanted to punch the bitch in the face. who the fuck is she?! anything that can happen to me, will.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Uncle Fester

Ever get the feeling someone you were sleeping with might be gay? I did!
At one time in my life, i did a shitty thing and started sleeping with my friends ex boyfriend.
I did the right thing though and i told her/asked her if she minded if him & i hung out, I didn't hide it.
She didn't care because they had been broken up for over a year.
She later got upset because she thought he cheated on her with me when they were together which wasn't the case at all.
To be honest, i was just bored and he was there to hang out with & go to punk shows with because it's boring to go alone.
He had weird habits;
1. He was probably about 6'' or taller, kind of a big pudgy guy & he wore pants that were so tight, you could see his balls. NOT a hott look!
2. He would look in mirrors, pop the collar of his shirt and say "I would fuck me" and make this weird kissy face at himself in the mirror. Um, WTF?!
3. He came to my house one day, with a girls earring in his ear. Like a dangly sparkly earring from Claire's (junk jewelry store for like pre-teen girls) I said it reminded me of George Michael (gay 80's/90's pop star) & he got so mad, he didn't talk to me for 3 hrs. oh boyyyy
4. He started bleaching his hair blond, and tried telling me he was a white supremest. (i called him a retard because his family was Spanish from Spain, still NOT 100% white)
5. He befriended my EX-BOYFRIEND SPIKEY. WTF?! WHY!!! He's my ex!! HOW AWKWARD?! Plus, after he became friends with my ex, my ex wouldn't stop talking/asking about me, which pissed him off and made him mad at me. REALLY?! You're an idiot.
6. A grown adult MALE stopped wanted to see me because, and i quote, "I feel like your just using me for sex, and i'm more then just sex i have feelings too. We have fun together but you just want it too often"
Um, i've NEVER in my life ever heard of a guy telling a girl "you want sex too much" usually the guy wants it too much and the girls like omg enough lol. wtf?!
7. Checked out GUYS and girls infront of me, i didnt care i wouldnt even say anything. It's human to look. & he FLIPPED out on me one day and accused me of checking a guy out and was like "WHY DONT YOU GET HIS NUMBER AND FUCK HIM TOO WTF IM STANDING RIGHT HERE"
I wasn't even looking at a guy.... He just wanted to start a fight, it was really bizarre.
8. Became OBSESSED with my ex to the point where my ex would text me and be like "he randomly showed up at my house, i was in the shower and he waited for me in my room. it was awkward i was in only a towel and he was sitting on my bed. I feel like he was checking me out.

I slept with my ex, to get back at him when he broke things off with me. Then he bugged out saying i made him look stupid because i moved on so fast after we "broke up" but we were never actually together, and he would tell people we weren't and then would get mad if someone hit on me. SO DUMB.
If you don't want to be with me, and we were never together then how can i make you look dumb by moving on so fast?!

 A year after we stopped talking, he randomly told me he bought Nazi paraphernalia. I said, that's nice until someone beats the shit out of you for wearing it. He called me a bitch and told me to have a nice life.
DONE. Or so i thought....

He ended up working at a clothing store in a mall i frequently shopped at which i didn't know until, SURPRISE i get a grab on the ass 2 years after we stop talking while I'm buying my boyfriend band t shirts for his birthday. HOW ANNOYING!! I was like, don't touch me. i have a boyfriend. he was like wow your looking hotter then ever i really miss fucking you. we should hang out sometime. i go, I HAVE A BOYFRIEND BACK OFF. & besides, didn't we "break up" because all i wanted was sex?!
He proceeded to harass me for MONTHS on myspace being like "I'm living with my girlfriend, but she's boring as hell. i love her, but you were so much more fun and adventurous. EW.
I felt so bad for that girl, he was obviously repeatedly cheating on her.

Did i mention that he is now currently dating someone who is his little sisters age? She cant be older then like 19 years old and he's 25. I always knew there was something off about him.
Weather it was a much younger girl, or a guy he was always a pretty big creep.

Did i mention that he shaved his head and slightly resembled Uncle Fester from the Adams Family, or as my manager from my old job pointed out... he also resembled Private Pile from the movie Full Metal Jacket.

I don't know what i was thinking.

Friday, December 2, 2011


In highschool i dated a guy, we will call him Spikey.
The reason for that nickname?
He sported a hairstyle very similar to this:

 No, my parents weren't happy when i brought someone home who looked like sonic the hedgehog.
Anyway, i was young dumb and i thought i was in love with.... well... a psycho.
For one, he didn't have a dad. His biological father left him and his mom when he was 2 because he was a severe drug addict.
For two, his moms new husband was an alcoholic demeaning asshole who he didn't get along with. But she had 2 daughters with him and didn't want to leave him despite the fact that he hated her son.
For three, there was way too many people living in his grandmas house: Grandma, Grandpa, GREATgrandma, Aunt, Uncle, their 2 little monster kids. At least they were normal...

Emaressing moments encountered when dating him:
1.His grandma walking in on us having sex once, because she didn't knock (in her own house) and wanted to offer us milk and cookies. SO AWKWARD!! I was embarrassed FOREVER.
2. His little monster cousins walking in on us too, but they were so little he just told them we were wrestling.... I told him their going to be scared for life when they get sex education in school.
3. We broke the wooden futon bed, and his aunt said something in front of EVERYONE that we need to be careful "wrestling" on the new futon they buy. (i almost died)
4. He almost flashed me in front of his grandpa, i think he saw in the reflection of the tv but im going to say he didnt because then almost everyone in that family has seen me naked. I almost punched him in the balls for that one, but i missed :\

Annoying things he did:
1. Got drunk and cried about how his real dad left him.
2. Didn't graduate HS until i graduated and he was supposed to graduate 2 years ahead of me.
3. Would get drunk, break stuff and have fits of rage.
4. Cheated on me which he never admitted to, but i knew it happened
5. Got so pissed one night made me and our friend walk from the mall, back to his house which seemed liked forever and we passed through like 4 towns.
6. Got so mad at his step dad that he tore apart his grandmas basement and had me chasing him walking a town over from where we were
7. BROKE UP WITH ME ON AOL INSTANT MESSENGER. How much of a bitch could you be?!

I thought i saw his grandma the other day at work, but i didn't say anything and its been so long i don't think she would remember me.
But it made me slightly curious to see if hes dead in a gutter yet, so i looked him up on Facebook.
 It seems like he is a drug addict now.... like biological father like son?
So glad i don't have contact with him or anything, In the last 6 years.
I'm sure he's still emotionally disturbed.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Technology phobic

My mother, god bless her is in her 60's and really is technology phobic.
As a kid, i tried to get her to use the computer and she would get overwhelmed and annoyed she wasn't "getting it" fast enough and would leave the room.
When she was a secretary over 20 years ago, she used a type writer.
When cell phones were getting very popular, she got one... and to this day barely uses it.
She writes down everyones number on a piece of paper and puts it in a "safe place so she wont lose it" so if she needs to call someone she can.
She has no clue how to use the phone book in the phone or how to text, i tried showing her, my dad picked it up but she didnt.
So, what did my mom do when she went shopping this weekend with my older brother?
She bought an ipad!!
Apparently my 9 year old neice, her granddaughter showed her all these cool slot machine type app games on the ipad, and my mom fell in love with it.
She actually kind of knows how to work it but still had some questions and i helped her and she LISTENED! OMG!!.
It just amazed me how for all these years i tried to show her how to work ANY computer type thing, and she would yell at me and get mad and walk away.
But her 9 year old granddaughter taught her and she sat and watched and listened to what she said. At least she did ask me stuff and listened for once, shocking!!

I gained 2 lbs since Thanksgiving, frustrating -_-
Well, today is the start to a new day to get back on track.

Sunday, November 27, 2011


Sorry for the lack of entries, life can be so crazy busy the last week!
I will update again, just not home long enough to make a real in depth entry ;]
Off to work...

Monday, November 21, 2011

Would you like a partner for dinner?!

Never saw such an awkward "ask out" in my life, not even in High School!!
Guy turns to woman next on my line, "You have a lot of food there, making a nice dinner?"
Woman: "Yes." (looks away)
Guy: "Oh, would you like.... a..... part ner for...dinner?? (very nervous)
Woman: "Um, no thank you." (looks away again)
Guy: "Uhhhh.... how about this, um.... Can I take you to dinner some time? I don't mind um, paying and stuff."
Woman: "NO."
Guy: "Wow, I'm uhh batting 1,000 here... How about YOU??" (turns & looks at me)
Me: "Um, you can slide your card to pay any time now."
Guy: (embarrassed, turns red) pays & runs out
Woman (to me): Well, THAT was awkward, how many times was i going to say no?

LMFAO, i felt bad for the guy.... but he was too nervous and awkward. 
Most women like a man with SOME kind of confidence.
I know to me, if a guy stuttering & stammering and being really awkward, HUGE turn off!!!
Especially after I say "No" once, if your still persistant then I think you are really obnoxious.

Did i mention a woman i rang up today looked like the character Janice aka Tony Sopranos sister on The Sopranos? 
So weird!! & another customer brought it up!! 
If it was her, and i didnt get her autograph I'm going to be so mad!!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Did you just sniff me?!

So, there's a creep in my cooking class
& for once it's not one of the older guys!
This guy, I don't know how old he is...
6'4'' or something big black guy with tattoos on his hands, neck like he looks like a murderer.
He works in the kitchen at an Applebee's, used to apparently work at my job.
He seems like a loser just put it that way.
He comes up to me the other night in class and SNIFFS me & tells me i smell good.
So just picture this huge black guy, hovers over me and takes a wiff.
& I'm like, did you just sniff me?!
He admitted it, and said i smelled amazing and wanted to know what perfume I was wearing.
I answered with, "I'm not even wearing perfume, maybe it's my shampoo."
So he sniffs me again... -_-,
& says "well whatever it is it smells awesome".
Then later in the class asked me if he could follow me out to my car to get my number...
  Iwas like NO.
So hes like what if i texts u like all da time.
I said, my BOYFRIEND would really not appreciate if you text me at all & if u do, it can only be for class related stuff.
He was like ohh... :\ ok.
& i ran away.
Either way i think he copied down my number because we all put our numbers on a paper for a snow day call list so we dont show up to class a night if class is canceled.
Stalker much?! FML.

Friday, November 18, 2011

More of My Food Experiments

My lunch from a few days ago;
2 cups baby spinach, 1/2 cup halved strawberries, 
1 golden delicious apple, 1 tblsp rice wine vinegar
& of course, a Skinny Water- I'm OBSESSED!
Delicious flavor, no sugar, no sodium, no calories- just vitamins.
I wish they went on sale for $1.00 each more often

The pasta I made in class last night;
Hand made FRESH tri color pasta made with; 
White flour, semolina flower, eggs, spinach, tomato paste
Red pepper, broccoli, garlic, and squash yellow chopped sauteed in olive oil, 
whole calamata olives added into sauteing for added flavor
With a balsamic vinegar reduction

It's a little tart, a little sweet- DELICIOUS. 
I don't think I'll ever be able to go back to boxed pasta ever again... 
I'm getting spoiled in this class!!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Tri Colored Pasta

Cooking class is tonight, and I'm so excited!
We're going to be making FRESH made tri-color pasta
I'm trying to stay away from carbs but I can make an exception once and a while..
After all, a cook has to sample what they made to make sure it's good :]

Cooking class has been inspiring me so much more to cook and to think outside the box and to experiment with new things in the kitchen.
Just this past weekend, my boyfriend and I made Chicken Parmesan:
Lightly breading salt free seasoned bread crumbs, 1 cage free egg, skim mozzerella cheese & heart healthy tomato sauce.
As a side dish we made: 
Whole wheat penne pasta with chopped onions and peppers with garlic and oil. 
mmm I'm getting hungry thinking about it, delicious and fairly healthy meal!

Yesterday for lunch i had:
2 cups baby spinach, 1/2 cup strawberries, 1 golden delicious apple, 1 tblsp rice wine vinegar.
Delicious a bit sweet and tart, nice balance. & very healthy

I'm enjoying cooking class so much that I'm contemplating going to culinary school. 
Like a full in depth course with tests and the uniforms and all that good stuff at an accredited school not just for fun or to dip my feet in the pool. 
Unfortunately it's going to run me about $6,000 that I don't currently have.... but I can possibly see about getting financial aide. Or take out student loans and pay them back, I think I might have found something that I'm good at AND makes me happy. 
I think hell just froze over...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

oooOOOOOohhhHHHHhhhh yesssss!!!!!

I was just reading an online article in Shape Magazine and this one particular article problem/question had really peaked my interest & I think that it is a good discussion piece:

"I’ve never had an orgasm. 
Ten percent of women are in your shoes, according to Rachel Needle, a clinical psychologist at the Center for Marital and Sexual Health of South Florida. 
“Letting yourself go can be scary,” says Needle. 
“And the more you stress out about it, the harder it is to focus on climaxing.” 
But it’s really worth the effort: 
Not only do they feel good, research suggests that orgasms can reduce stress, alleviate pain and symptoms of PMS, and may even help you live longer. 
There’s no universal map to “getting there” because everyone is different; learning about your body is key. “Masturbating is the best way to do this,” says Levine. 
“Once you’ve orgasmed on your own, you’ll be better able to guide your partner.” 
Often intercourse alone isn’t enough stimulation, adds Nelson, so experiment by using your hands and trying various positions. 
Don’t fret about how long it takes—anywhere from seven to 30 minutes is normal. Just lie back and enjoy."- Kate Kelly and Sharon Liao, Shape Magazine

I agree 100% that you need to get yourself off in order to figure out and to know what you like and don't like sexually. 
I feel bad for the 10 or more % of people who never had an orgasm, I don't think that's healthy! 
If i were a doctor, i would recommend at least one a day... like the vitamin but way more enjoyable.
There are many ways to try to do it yourself nowaday anyway, you don't have to just have a partner or your own hand. 
There's probably hundreds of different types of vibrators, dildos, massagers to get the juices going for that ultimate rush feeling of an amazing orgasm! 
Just ask Sis aka LMF, just last year she had a sex toy party! I stocked up on some good stuff from edible creams to this stuff called Climaxa which when rubbed on the clit, became warm and made a tingling sensation making any touch magnetize what seemed to be 1,000%!! ;]
I'm a firm believer that if you don't love yourself in every sense of the word love, no one will be able to love you.
But seriously, I don't want to remember what life was like before orgasms. 
Maybe if everyone had them more often, people would be more pleasant to be around! 
Maybe it would create peace on earth if everyone rubbed one out once a day or got a good lube or vibrator or had a skilled sexual partner.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Free Turkey

At my job, they do a Thanksgiving promotion inorder to get people to shop at the store. 
So, they have a promotion that if you spend $300.00 between october 16th and novemeber 24th you can claim a free:
Store brand frozen turkey, tofurky, stoffuers lasagna or a store made frozen ham. 
You can only claim 1 per family, if you want a kosher turkey anything over 15 lbs is .49 a lb or something etc. 
It basically limits the more expensive ones and you pay the difference but their all very fair prices. 
It states all the information on the signs in the store, in the weekly flyer, at the registers posted sign, and on the bottom of the reciepts. plus theres signs in the cases where the stuff is, & yet....

Why is it that every time someone comes over with a damn turkey, 
I get yelled at that i dont know what im talking about and that im an idiot?? 
Go speak to customer service or a manager then. I don't control what is given for free or the prices of anything. 
In all honesty, it's not my fault these people choose NOT to read the stipulations of the promotion.
I can feel the hate in some people when they leave me line after i explain to them no, it's only free to a certain extent with certain types of turkeys or hams they pick out. 
Like, a honey spiral ham from a brand name is more expensive then a store brand for the most part so we only give off a certain amount of pounds and you pay the difference, which is like what $10? 
People are so ignorant and cheap sometimes it makes me mad!!
I feel like they pick the one that isn't 100% free on purpose, just to get into an argument or to see if they could argue the more expensive one for free. Savages...

I can't make EVERYONE happy. fuck it.

Grapefruit Diet, Diet! Hold back the pizza & beer...

I know dieiting has become part of my daily life for about a year now. 
I lost about 60 lbs, I still find dieting a bit of a struggle every day. 
Exercise has become... well nill. I just got unmotivated to exercise, I was at one time exercising every day except on the weekend. 
I've been staying about the same weight though even without exercising i'm still within a 5 lb range of what i was when i was exercising daily. Almost makes me wonder, is exercise really that important? Or is food and diet intake more important?
When im at work im on my feet for 5+ hours a day and i walk around a decent amount daily so it's not like im glued to the couch. So i wonder, does everyone need to exercise for 1+ hr a day in order to stay "fit"?

How do you feel about the billions of diet trends around today? 
I know i feel overwhelmed when going into a bookstore to look into a new cook book or diet cook book.
Everything from Weight Watchers to Southbeach Diet to Atkins to Nutrisystem to HCG. I mean, i could go on and on with all these diet crazes! 
It could make you dizzy trying to figure out which diet would best suit you... when are scientists going to come up with that magic pill already?!
I've only tried 1 diet pill aid that ACTUALLY helped/worked and it was this:
But you can only take it as directed, and once you take it you cant take it again for a few months due to the amount of caffeine in it. 
I give this 2 big thumbs up and I recommend this for anyone who is serious about weight loss.
Though it works best if you have an exercise/diet program to go along with it. 
Which leads me to my next conundrum...

Which foods are healthy/not healthy?
Every diet seems to have a different answer, and scientists can't seem to agree 100% on what foods are good and bad for you! One minute processed foods are so bad dieticians say that's whats making americans fat. 
On the other hand, other dieticians are writing articles for magazines "top 20 snack foods for dieters" and their putting things on there such as:
"Soy crips"- Full of salt preservatives, high carbs.
"Express/On The Go Oatmeal"- Full of sugar, high calories, low fiber, high carbs, high salt.
"Granola bars"- high calories, high salt, low fiber, high sugar, high carbs

Which leads to yet another question, "Can you REALLY believe every/any diet book or article"?
I buy cook books, for reference. 
I ONLY buy ones that list the calorie, sugar, sodium and carb per serving so that i know what I'm eating, and i can always tweak it to make it not as bad for you so i feel good about the meal I'm eating. 
I also, use an online application to track my calorie intake, exercise and stuff for the day to track my weight loss goals. I am in control of my weight loss goals, not some crazy diet trend i wouldn't be able to follow because they all seem complicated for no reason.


He's furry, bites and scratches, meow's oddly. 
He's lazy, chubby and not intimidating at all but we still call him our guard cat. 

Did I mention, I think he thinks he's a dog?! 
What normal cat does that pose, it's a dogs pose!!
Well, he might be slightly "off" because when he was a kitten, i was a bit of an experimenter in HS and i think he got into some of my stuff. nothing serious, just on the herb/plant level... but i still think it made him loopy. No one in the family knows about it though, they just think he's a bi polar psycho cat.
How can you NOT love a cute little furry face like that?? 
I mean, when he's not biting or scratching I love him to pieces.
I'm a cat person through and through, been around cats since the day i was born. 
Plus, I'm very allergic to dogs... among a million other things I'm allergic to. 
Anyone else allergic to stuff? If so, what?

Monday, November 14, 2011

Ink, Not Mink

Chester Bennington of amazing rock band, Linkin Park posing for the Ink not Mink campaign. 
He is not only a very talented musician, singer and song writer but has a disturbing troubled past as well. 
I read interviews with him years ago, and he explains that he got inspiration for writing many of his songs because he was molested as a child. 
It is very sad he had to go through that, but he ended up making something of his life and persevered to be a better person. Instead of letting it ruin his life, he is helping other people deal with it by hearing his words. 
In some of the recorded songs, you can almost hear the hate/pain in his voice. 
I admire him very much for his courage to let so many people into that part of his inspiration.

Wise Guy

The only remotely interesting customer I've had recently, was a 40 or 50 something year old guy with a big bushy beard that had to tell me that his grandmother used to tell him "Don't be a wise guy". He must have told me this, 50 times! 
I said, "That's nice?". What else could i say to that? Then i started kind of laughing/smiling at how he was saying it, and he was so happy he made me smile. He shouted "LOOK! Look at that!! I'm making her smile!!" Awkward...

Recently I also had a customer ask me how frequent i work and what time of day i usually work. 
I was scared he might stalk me or murder me walking out to my car, so i said every week and every day is different.... which wasn't necessarily a lie i mean retail hours are always different and suck. 
But then i asked, why do you want to know? 
Then he got quiet, didn't say a work paid and left quickly. WTF?!

Did i also mention i HATE wearing a name tag at work?
I don't appreciate strangers knowing my name, and especially when they mispronounce it. 
I hate when customers think their cute by saying hi to me, look at my name tag and say hi with my name like they think they know me personally for years.

Old people customers are the WORST for these top 5 reasons;
1. "Can i give you the 98 cents in change? I want to get rid of some of my change."- Which then turns into them stand there for 10+ minutes, counting nickles and pennies. -_-
2. "How much is this?"- (say however much it rings up and point to the screen where it shows it) 
WHAT??? (repeat exactly what i said, louder) WHAT?? I CANT HEAR YOU. 
I so badly want to tell them to either: turn UP their hearing aid, or to get one... or just put yourself out of misery already!!
3. Almost anything more then 1.00, is too expensive & they complain about how they can't afford anything on Social Security. & how years ago groceries were so much cheaper. 
That is a true statement, that groceries even a few years ago were cheaper but now EVERYTHING is expensive people!!
4. Old people smell like shit, piss, moth balls, cheap perfume/cologne, bengay, any gross smell imaginable is what old people smell like. 
It's gross, shower and smell normal stop making all of us suffer.
5. Rude old people. Just because your old, doesn't give you the right to talk down to everyone and be just a miserable piece of shit. Not all young people are assholes, but i your going to be rude... well then you deserve it back! Sometime i want to tell the rude old people should either stay home or take the stick out of their ass.

-End Rant-


I've been hooked on the new AMC series show called, #TheWalkingDead since season one. 
Now that were midway through season 2 has been getting a little more interesting, & the guys are looking a little hotter for some reason lol! 
Gore, guts, guns, i mean what more can i ask for in a zombie show?! This show is blowing all old zombie movies out of the water between the special effects, zombie makeup... everything! Granted, their not really following the graphic novel story line but it's still an awesome show!

Oh yeah, the guys aren't bad looking either, that guy from Boondock Saints is in the show.... for a red neck kinda weird character he is very likable.
He almost got killed off on last nights episode because stupid Andrea doesn't like to take orders from the men.
I would have been so mad if he was killed off already, he's my favorite character next to Shane. Even if Shane is a douche bag and kind of an asshole in the second season, i still like his character.

Although his character "Shane" might be going psycho on the show, killed a character to save himself... He's still not terrible on the eyes. lol
I don't know if I would be mad if there was a zombie apocalypse if he was there to save the day haha.

There are other male and female characters on the show but I'll post about them later. I can't wait for next weeks episode already!!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

My teacher looks like Paula Dean with shorter hair..

Tonight in cooking class I made:
Carrot ginger soup; thick soup, tastes very similar and has a similar consistency to the dressing they put on salads at the Japanese Hibachi restaurants. It can be served either hot or cold, mmm delicious!!
Black bean soup; needs another can of beans for texture because the other can was pureed but its tangy from the jalapeno, very delicious my boyfriend and his dad are going to absolutely love it! They LOVE spicy hahaha
Manhattan clam chowder; Nice, chunky not an over load on the potatoes (icky, carbohydrates are an evil & add extra unnecessary calories!) It was so good that I got an immediate 2 thumbs up from dad on this one haha!!
Dad tried all 3 as soon as i got home, he liked all of them :] I don't think I could ever go back to a completely canned soup ever again after cooking it and using mostly fresh ingredients....I'm going to be a soup snob haha :X

Night Cooking Class

Tonight in cooking class I made:
Carrot ginger soup; thick soup, tastes very similar and has a similar consistency to the dressing they put on salads at the Japanese Hibachi restaurants. It can be served either hot or cold, mmm delicious!!
Black bean soup; needs another can of beans for texture because the other can was pureed but its tangy from the jalapeno, very delicious my boyfriend and his dad are going to absolutely love it! They LOVE spicy hahaha
Manhattan clam chowder; Nice, chunky not an over load on the potatoes (icky, carbohydrates are an evil & add extra unnecessary calories!) It was so good that I got an immediate 2 thumbs up from dad on this one haha!!
Dad tried all 3 as soon as i got home, he liked all of them :] I don't think I could ever go back to a completely canned soup ever again after cooking it and using mostly fresh ingredients....I'm going to be a soup :X

Some of My Food Experiments

 Mango, Papaya, Peach yogurt smoothie. Blended with ice, mmm!
1/2 cup of egg whites, 1 slice fat free kraft american cheese, 1 slice of light whole wheat bread with smart balance heart right light butter
 1/2 cup of egg whites, 1/2 chopped green pepper. 1 chopped slice of white onion.
 2 slices light whole wheat bread, 1 tblsp almond butter no salt added, 1 tblsp sugar free blackberry jam, 1 cut up red delicious apple.
 1 cup baby spinach, 1/2 cup halved strawberries, 1/2 cup raspberries.
1 golden delicious apple cut, 1 low carb salsa tortilla, 1/2 cup baby spinach, 2 tblsp roasted garlic hummus, 1/2 cup sliced red bell pepper

MMMM I'm hungry now!! LOL

Worst Pick Up Lines

Sis aka LMF asked on her last blog post, "what were the worst pick up lines you ever got?" 
I have quite a few with stories attached to some in response to that one hahaha

Tip #1 Guys; 
Pick up lines are ALWAYS really cheesy and makes a girl 
NOT want to date you automatically after hearing it. 
Unless she is VERY gullible and believes that crap.

1. "You have very nice skin, its so pale and pure... perfect for tattooing"
That was a random messege from a guy on myspace who i actually met years later by chance. 
I brought that up and he got embaressed and pretened to not know who i was. (Probably because his wife was standing there with the kids)
2. "I just wanted to let you know, that i see you two fist pumping over here having a good time"
(There was no music playing, there fore no fist pumping was happening. only us quietly watching the UFC paper view on the tvs having a drink bullshitting)
Only when Sis and I are at a bar, can some asshole come up to us and say dumb shit lmao.
I told him, "It's nice to know you have eyeballs, can I help you?"
He responded with, "If you girls want a drink tonight, let me know I'll buy it."
WTF?! lmao that was also the night Sis met some jackass i think his name was Matt that wouldnt stop texting her to the point where she wanted to throw her phone.
Tip #2 Guys; 
If a girl doesn't answer your phone call or text the first time. Give it a rest! 
Blowing up her phone, is only a turnOFF & makes you look psychotic. 
You can most definitely kiss your chances with her goodbye if she looks at her phone and sees 765434567 missed called and 87654567890 texts.

 3. "Yo shorty, lemme getcha numba you lookin FINE tonight! Leave ya boy n cum wit me. mMmMm i'll treat you better then him. dayummm uze fine"
Mind you, I was standing outside Starbucks with my bf and we were all over each other and shit so he was NOT happy when this kid came up and said this shit. 
But i said to the kid (because i think he was only like 16) you see im with my man, walk away.
This kid was so stupid, him and his friend did that twice! 
THEN my bf went up to them and said he was going to kick their ass if they hit on me again & so they ran off like scared puppies lol
4. "Wow, I never met a girl who like knew anything about beer. Or a girl that like really likes to drinks beer. That's pretty hott.... can i like... get your number to... um.... talk about.... beer??"
If your not a valley GIRL from the 80's, you shouldn't say "like" so much!!
Stuttering and stammering is also a turn off, girls like guys who have some sort of confidence.
 5. "You have really pretty eyes"
Um, come up with something slightly origional please?
Plus, in a dark bar how the fuck are you going to see what my eyes look like?? You're an idiot.
I get the creepiest "pick up line" messages on the internet:
glewykablewy: heya hotsymama, i plan to travel the states by blow-up kayak and fold-up bike in order to farm, have fun and (if you want) stop by your house. you are absolutely sexy and delicious looking but you knew that... i wonder how you taste...
Yene_Coene: i can't help but appreciate your boobs in that pic. not to be a perv or anything if you can't see what I mean, then iunno....

I probably have more bad pick up line stories i just cant think of more right now lol.
The dating world, what a cruel and stupid place lol. 
Thankfully I'm taken, but i still get hit on by dumbasses.

Attack of the ex bf

Anyone have an ex that just doesn't seem to go away for very long? I find it annoying and obnoxious, we broke up... move on. You can't be friends with an ex it just doesn't work.

This guy, we will call "Brooklyn" was a 6'3'' big Spanish kid with a bright green Mohawk i went out with in HS and we only dated for 3 months. 
Which out of the 3 months, i only saw him 3 times because i met him in the city.
This is how the break up went: he called me one night crying hysterically saying that he had sex with this girl sara but he wished it was me and he was drunk and he called her my name which made her cry. 
(we never had sex btw). 
I said, well... you cheated so I'm done with you. Your dirty and disgusting and i hung up on him. The next day he called me up again crying saying we had to break up and hes sorry because hes being deported back to Ecuador because he had to serve in the military. 
WTF? i just broke up with you yesterday why are you calling me?? 
Ok liar psycho boy whatever were broken up i don't care anymore. 

Needless to say, he was NEVER deported. He did however go to VISIT his family there for a few months and came back no problem! 
I hate liars....
Anyway, YEARS pass. & randomly after I'm seeing my boyfriend for like 2 years he pops up out of nowhere being like "i miss you, i treated you like crap. can we be friends?" 
So whatever i accepted his apology thinking he would just go away. NO. He continued to harass me all the time, saying we should hang out without your bf. 
Saying shit like i want to kiss you, i want you, i want to treat you the way you should have been treated. 
I said I'm in love with my bf you had your chance years ago and you blew it like get over it. 
He got mad and said all this dumb shit such as i know i screwed up give me another chance all those typical lines guys tend to use. 
I said, what do you not understand about me not wanting to mess up my relationship for anything? I'm in love take a hint im being blunt now but go the fuck away!!
Basically he then admitted he only wants to hang out to sleep with me because I'm the only girl he wanted that he never got. GROSS. 
So i said "your not worth ruining my relationship with my bf who gets mad every time you message me and you start fights between me and him its not worth it I'm cutting off contact with you. lose my number and respect me by staying away"
So what happens a year later after i remove the block on him from Facebook?? HE INSTANTLY SENDS ME A REQUEST!!! Someone doesn't get the hint do they??

Brooklyn: hey whats up? how have you been?
·  Me: good and you?
·  Brooklyn: Really good, I moved to Missouri a few months back
·  Me: thats cool i guess i never been out there
·  Brooklyn: Haha its really nice, not as country as I would like but I'm happy here. I live right outside Kansas city but I'm moving back to ny next summer. Still long island?
·  Me: Yep why r u moving bak if u like it?
·  Brooklyn: Miss my family too much, plus I dnt drive and I need to out here
·  Me: ahhh
·  Brooklyn: Yea so Idk my lease is up next summer so ill be moving back then, hey im gnna shower and get ready and ill message u when I'm at work. Later

I don't understand, why not just go away? I really didn't care about him or where he is or what he is doing if i cared, i think i would have sent him the request or the message. I think some people you let out of your life for a reason, and they should stay out of your life.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Asshole customer of the day

I feel like if your going to be a rude customer, then maybe you should just stay home instead of polluting the world with your negative bitchy attitude. Just sayin'.

So, i ring up these 3 girls and they have a toy at the bottom of the cart;
Me: "Is that your toy?"
Me: "Ok." (Finish ringing them up)
I ask again "Would you like that toy at the bottom of your cart?"
Me: "ok i can take it until you decide if you want".
Bitchy Customer: "WELL HOW MUCH IS IT?" 
Me: (look up price), "its 14.99".
Bitchy Customer: "THE SIGN SAID IT WAS ON SALE!!"
Me: "well it is ringing up 14.99, would you like me to add it to the order to see if anything comes off with the card? 
Bitchy customer's friend: "DONT YOU DARE PUT THAT ON MY ORDER. 
Me: Ok, (puts toy under register) 

They leave & my next customer goes, "Is that a joke? Do you know those girls?" I said no i don't know those wackos. She was like OMG i thought you knew them!! WHAT NERVE! I BET THEY WERE TRYING TO STEAL THAT TOY! Wow people will stoop so low as to yell at you when you prevented them from stealing well i think they were rude.
Then a girl on the line behind me says "Were those girls giving you a hard time?" i was like "it's whatever i dont even care" and she says "im going to say something to them in the parking lot!!" i was like "i wouldn't do that if i were you..." So i don't know if they all knew each other or if they were all just wackos but at the end of the day, i just wanted to go home.

Did i mention i work at a GROCERY store and these assholes are arguing about the price of a TOY & paid with a food stamp card? Sometimes, i hate people who are on assistance they can be such pieces of shit.

A little about me.

I'm a young female raised by 2 insane Jewish parents.
I'm in my 20's. I was born and raised in Long Island NY, I love to travel because LI is a pretty boring place. 
I still live at home with my parents due to the fact that i don't make nearly enough money to live on my own. 
I currently work part time as a grocery store cashier. I was a full time administrative assistant for a HVAC company but due to lack of work i was let go last year and was unemployed for 6 months. 
It's not a glamorous job being a cashier, and the general public is pretty awful but i needed to do something to pay my bills & nothing else came up for work. 
I dropped out of college after the first semester years ago and recently decided that i was no longer going to just be an unhappy disgruntled retail associate and signed up for cooking classes at night one night a week. 
I hope to experiment with different aspects of cooking and find something i love to do, and look into a career in that field and possible further schooling and study in it.
I have an amazing supportive boyfriend who drives me crazy sometimes but i love him more then anything. 
In march will be our 5 year anniversary, when i was in high school I never thought i would be able to be with someone for so long.
The next post will probably be more interesting lol