Wednesday, January 25, 2012

You're not the boss of me.

I hate how everyone thinks their a fucking boss in my store. It infuriates me as a matter of fact. You are only a customer service bitch or another cashier or a book-keeper, your not special you're not my manager nor do you sign my checks.
Get off your high horse just because the REAL managers hand you the key so they can go on your break, makes you a 'manager' for 15 minutes. If they wanted to make you a real manager, you would get the title and pay increase.

Don't tell me what to do in a rude tone, if i feel like you're talking down to me i stop listening. Speak to me like a normal human being or i'm going to be an even more sarcastic bitch to you.
Don't say things to me passive aggressively but loud enough for everyone to hear and turn to look, i get enough of that shit at home.

Stop flirting with all the male employees of the store thinking that your all cute & all the guys want your shit. Your too skinny & you look very needy and annoying. If guys cringe when you go to hug them, they obviously have no interest in dating you.
Also, stop complaining to all the girls in the store loud enough for everyone to hear about how all these guys start to ignore you and call you clingy, get defensive and ask if your being clingy. If more the 4 people in a year tell you that your clingy, maybe you are & should do something about it.

-End Rant-

Monday, January 16, 2012

Age is just a number

It's crazy how fast time flys by.... it feels like just yesterday i was turning 21, now I'm approaching my 24th birthday in about a week. It's just funny how you think you have all the time in the world, and before you know it 3-4 years pass by in what seems like a flash.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Goal

I want to have this similar body type by the summer:
I've loved Marilyn Monroe for as long as i can remember, i would LOVE to have her body. She was thin, but not scary thin she had a little meat on her but she was absolutely stunning she barely had any fat on her & she didn't have cellulite. I think she was one of the prettiest girls of her time.

Even Elizabeth Taylor had a SICK body in the day!! Not an ounce of cellulite on her, and she wasn't super skinny either... also one of my role models even to this day. I would love to look like too, especially her eyes she was absolutely stunning. & we have something in common, we're brunettes! haha

Overbearing

o·ver·bear·ing/ˌōvərˈbe(ə)riNG/


Adjective:
Unpleasantly or arrogantly domineering.

Synonyms:
imperious - masterful - domineering - arrogant - haughty

 
I swear, my mom is the definition of overbearing. No matter what I'm doing in the house unless it has to do with my room, she steps in and does stuff for me. If im putting away food i bring home, she has to step in and do it... 
It's like i cant do anything for myself & im constantly getting yelled at. & then i get annoyed/my anxiety hits the roof because i cant do anything for myself and it drives me nuts because in another breath she;ll yell at me that i never help around the house.... -_-
My dad will be like "why do you look annoyed?" & i;ll say "whatever, it's nothing" & i go upstairs and away from everyone and blast my angry music until i calm down. 
Its obnoxious though i cant do anything right and no matter what im always getting yelled at & if its not by her, im getting yelled at for dumb things by my dad too. i swear i wont be sane/normal until i move out.

I'll have a perfectly nice night at cooking class & i like cooking class its 3 hrs i get to be away from everything and everyone & i have to go home to get yelled at?? Ruins my night. 
& not only that, on my way home from cooking class i called my bf to tell him what i made in cooking class and then he;s like im going to sleep im like ok goodnight i love you he said it back and said bye so i said bye and i hung up.
He called me back all annoyed and said i hung up on him while he was talking. I said you said you were going to sleep goodnight love you mwah and you said bye he's like well i didnt say bye im like ok im sorry what were you saying then because i just dont want to argue with him i just wanna go home & he all with an attitude was like nevermind i;ll talk to you tomorrow bye -_-. 
 
So it's like one thing after another i just cant seem to do anything right today it's annoying/frustrating as hell.

My astrological profile

Rising Sign is in 11 Degrees Cancer
Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected.

Sun is in 04 Degrees Aquarius.
You get bored with the status quo and are generally open to new things and ideas. An individualist and a free spirit, your friends are quite important to you as long as they do not try to tie you down by making too many emotional demands on you. Your thoughts are offbeat and you're a bit eccentric, but not always very changeable. As a matter of fact, you can be quite stubborn at times. Very fair-minded when dealing with large groups or broad issues, you are not always emotionally sensitive to the needs of individuals. Extremely objective, with good powers of observation, you would be qualified to study technical and complicated subjects, like science, computers or maybe even astrology.

Moon is in 20 Degrees Aries.
High-spirited and courageous, you are a fighter when your emotions are aroused. The degree of force and drive that you can bring to any effort sometimes surprises others. You have hair-trigger reactions to specific stimuli and tend to "let it all hang out." You sometimes act before you think and do things on the spur of the moment, and that sometimes gets you into trouble. Your moods change quickly -- you have quite a temper, but you don't hold grudges. Very independent, with an extremely strong and forceful personality, you are known for being impulsive, careless, reckless, foolhardy, rash and daring.

Mercury is in 22 Degrees Aquarius.
You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things.

Venus is in 11 Degrees Pisces.
You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete.

Mars is in 10 Degrees Sagittarius.
Your every action is motivated by high moral standards and ideals. You will work very hard to improve the lot of the world at large, but you demand action about it -- you do not like to just sit around and talk about doing it in an abstract manner. You like to be where the real action is. You resist mightily any attempts to limit your freedom and you will assist anyone who feels put down and restricted. You are extremely restless by nature -- physical exercise is very important to you if you would maintain your health.

Jupiter is in 22 Degrees Aries.
The way that you grow and develop is by being an uncompromising individualist. You have a great need to be yourself and to explore your latent talents and abilities. Do not be afraid to let yourself go and develop self-confidence and pride in your accomplishments. But try not to become so self-centered that you ignore the needs of others. Also, you may have to build up your self-discipline in order to focus your energies properly.

Saturn is in 28 Degrees Sagittarius.
Basically quite conservative, you respect traditional authority figures and are very thankful and supportive of the laws and institutions which govern your life. You learn and accept new ideas only after having very thoroughly examined them. Ideals and abstract concepts are important to you only if they can be used in some practical fashion. You are so practical and so orderly that you have natural skills in planning, administrating and organizing.

Uranus is in 29 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 08 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 12 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 24 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!


Freaky how accurate a lot of those things are in relation to me!!
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Sexting

Sexting is the act of sending sexually explicit messages or photographs, primarily between mobile phones. The term was first popularized in early 21st century, and is a portmanteau of sex and texting, where the latter is meant in the wide sense of sending a text possibly with images.[1]

Sexting, It's like the new-aged way to have "phone sex" & if you don't have a webcam for "cyber sex" this is the next best thing! But, be careful!! In a matter of minutes, that one picture can be sent to hundreds/thousands of people- embarrassing you for a long time. Look at all the celebrities that sexted a picture, and it ended up all over the internet & in a football players case, landed him in a LOT of trouble!!

I don't condone young people like in HS or even younger because apparently teens in MIDDLE school are sexually active these day which scares me let alone for them to be sexting. Because we all know young girls & boys like to torment each other and before you know it, it ends up going all over the school embarrassing the people to the point of suicidal thought/actions. 

& I don't think even adults should do it unless their in a long term committed relationship because you never want pictures of you to be sent to everyone on the planet. look at pete wenz from fall out boy, he sexted a picture once and it ended up ALL over the internet!! same with miley cyrus among many other stars.

But in a committed relationship, i think sexting is hott & can help some couples who struggle with telling each other what they want in the bedroom alloud. 
Sometimes i think people tend to express themselves more in typing/texting because it's is easier for people to hide behind a screen then to tell their partner in the sheets, "no, do me from behind and pull my hair." 
I think that people tend to get shy and scared to ruin a moment in the sack. But if you can't find a way to tell your partner your likes & dislikes, then your sex life could probably improve by A LOT in my opinion.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Unknown Drunken Injuries

New years i along with my boyfriend and his friend, we all almost finished a bottle of Absolute Vodka. I guess i drank most of it, considering the fact i puked my brains out and don't remember half the night.

Well i had work 11:30 the next morning, and needless to say i made it... but i thought i was dieing;
Pounding headache, sick to my stomach still nauseous, all i could eat was 2 pieces of toast VERY slowly. I was so shaky from having like no food or anything in my body but i also couldn't stomach anything to really eat.
They had me cover a break at the grill at first when i got to work, i really thought i was going to puke on a customer. plus it was so hot by the grill, i was getting even more dizzy and nauseous, AWESOME.
& it seemed like when they put me back on register, i got everyone who had personal hygene issues, rude & who was buying smelly meat, fish, chicken, hot food...
i thought i was going to barf for like HOURS. They actually asked me to leave hour and a half early and i took that i left lol i need the money but i still felt like shit.

Did i also mention that I woke up with a lot of bruises all over me, don't know what their from until my boyfriend informed me. I kept walking into things, fell a few times i was really wrecked. He really is the greatest guy ever he took such good care of me since im still alive.

So, how was YOUR new years?!
To a happy and a healthy and prosperous 2012 <3

Monday, January 2, 2012

Sex Myths- BUSTED ;)


Article is from Women's Health Magazine online, love that magazine & very interesting topic of conversation. Italiacs are going to be my 2 cents on the excerpt.


He's Intimidated by Your Vibrator
Wrong! In fact, your guy might be secretly hoping you'll bust out a new "toyfriend" during your next romp. According to a recent Indiana University study, 41 percent of women have used a battery-powered buddy with their partner. And it goes beyond him watching you go wild: "Many men find vibration pleasurable on their penis and other body parts," says Debby Herbenick, Ph.D., a research scientist at Indiana University and author of Because It Feels Good. If he's game, vary the vibration speed and intensity to find something that revs up both of you.

I never thought of using a sex toy with anyone other them myself, it just sounds weird i mean how does that get brought up? "Want to have sex?, Nah, Id rather just use my vibrator tonight" hahaha i mean it just seemed weird to me but after getting drunk one night my boyfriend asked me if i touched myself when I don't see him. I was honest and said yes, he thought it was really hot & told me to bring them over next time because he wanted to see what i do when he's not around. I have to admit, it was kinda hot when he got so turned on, he took charge and used them on me. I thought it would be weird, but it almost made us closer to each other because we were really open and honest. I mean, if he's not around and I'm in the mood.... I have to do something about it, I'm not single I can't just find any random guy. Have any of you guys ever used toys in the bedroom with your partners?

The G-Spot Doesn't Really Exist
Earlier this year, a French study found physical evidence of this elusive erogenous zone: Women who were able to achieve vaginal orgasm had thicker-than-average tissues between the vagina and the urethra. Whether this area is a magic orgasm-inducing button for you depends on your sensitivity, says Beverly Whipple, Ph.D., coauthor of The Orgasm Answer Guide. "Lie on your back and have your partner (or yourself) use one or two fingers to stimulate the upper front wall of your vagina with a 'come here' motion," she says. Hit the right spot and within 10 seconds you'll know it. During vaginal intercourse, try rear entry or woman on top—both put his penis in a position to hit the jackpot.

I don't care what it is, or where it is.... if it's a mythical spot or not. But when it's touched, licked or fucked right, eventually it then becomes the best high in the world!! Learn it guys!! 

Size Matters
A bigger penis doesn’t necessarily make sex more mind blowing. For one, it won’t help a guy reach your (very real— see myth No. 3) G-spot, and it could actually be painful if his penis hits your cervix during sex. If his length is lacking, stick to positions that keep you close together (such as missionary), have him use a grinding rather than thrusting movement, and wrap your legs around him for extra clitoral stimulation. Got a bigger boy? Woman-on-top positions (like reverse cowgirl) let you control the depth of his stroke.

Size only matters, if when hard it's the size width and length of your pinky from the knuckle to nail. I've seen those before... it's more or less like a tic tack you wont feel anything. But really big, like scary big like sausage status will make most girls bleed and feel uncomfortable which isn't good either. What ever happened to average?? hahahaha Girls, do you think size matters?!

Watching Porn Is a Guy Thing
Watching porn is a guy thing. Researchers at Washington University School of Medicine in St. Louis found that looking at erotic images caused a rapid increase in women’s electrical brainwave activity that was just as strong as in men’s. “Women can use porn to find out what they like and are comfortable with in the bedroom,” explains Lou Paget, a certified sex educator. Watch it solo to help yourself get into the mood, or invite your guy to watch your fave film together as foreplay.

Another thing while drunk, got brought up between me and my man. I don't watch it really, but I've watched it before and he thought that was really sexy. So, we watched it together and i don't know it just seemed like the intensity was turned up because it's normal to look at other people as long as we still have the hots for each other, only have sex with each other and don't need the porn to get off, just thought it would be something different to put it on during. A funny porn, it always the best kind to break the ice too. Anyone watch porn with their significant others to turn up the heat a little once and a while? Or maybe some role playing? Some S&M? A little experimenting never killed anyone.

Don't Forget, practice safe sex and use condoms <3