Thursday, December 18, 2014

1 year

This pretty much sums us up:

"Love is friendship that has caught fire.
It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving.
It is loyalty through good and bad times.
It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses."- Ann Landers
"Love is a force more formidable than any other.
It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured.
Yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could."- Barbara de Angelis
"Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do
Is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are.
Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you.
The right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass.
That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with."- Juno

Sunday, December 14, 2014

The walking dead

Hello Norman Reedus <3
Why do I happen to like so many guys with crossbows as weapons in movies and tv shows??!!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

December, NYC

There is NOTHING like the Holidays in NYC!
It's probably my favorite time of year, even if i get cold fast.
It is totally worth it to see Saks 5th Ave and Lord & Taylor's windows all done up.
The lights in the streets, the Rockefeller Center Tree.
There is NO place quite like NY.
Some pictures from last night:

We tried to go to Celsius for dinner in Bryant Park, it was recommended to me by a co worker.
They ended up being closed the night we went for a private event.
We ended up going to Bills Bar & Burger & had a blast,
Drank a pitcher of Cold Ass beer & stuffed our faces.
I highly recommend the drink Campfire and if you add Makers Mark they make it very
And as usual, whenever I take the train to Penn Station- Manhattan
I have to get something at Hot & Crusty.
Bread, cookies, everything they have there is amazing!
I ended up taking home cookies that never made it home...
I ended up eating them all on the train ride home.
SOOO GOOD!!! Highly recommended by me as well.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Attn all gamers!!!

Everyone should go to the link above, and try this game out! 
This game has been worked on for 10 years.
Is it me or Does everyone buy a game at game stop these days and beat it in a day or 2 and then get bored?? 
Let's go back to old school!'
I'm telling you, give this game a shot!! 
Totally worth it!!

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Brides maid

I just want to put out to the universe that in brides maids dress I am apparently a size 22.
22??!! Really??!!
I know I've gained some weight in the least year but wow.
The girl at Macy's was like "well the dresses run small so your going to want a little bigger just in case" fine.
Oh, by the way size 18 or higher is an extra 40$ then the other girls dresses.
Screw it just order the damn dress.
22.... I can't.
I'm blaming it on my boobs and my ass but still, wtf.

Friday, December 5, 2014

Low calorie low sugar low fat Green tea frappiccino

Being that I'm lactose intolerant to a certain extent, I love getting a soy based drink at Starbucks. Dunkin donuts does not offer dairy free options.
But when you go Into any coffee place, what are they REALLY putting in your drink of choice??
Well if you look of the nutrition facts of your favorite Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts drink, you might be displeased like me and want to make these at home from now on.
But not just the high sugar, high fat and high calorie content, going out to get these drinks at a coffee place adds up to a lot of $$!!
Plus, I've been trying to get back on track with a diet since gaining some weight back. And it really grossed Me out looking at some of my favorite drinks in calorie content, I was better off eating a pint of ice cream!!!
Scary isn't it??!!
So I've been making my own green tea Frappuccino at home now, my favorite drink at Starbucks. Now I'm saving myself the trip and 5$+ tax for a cup of the stuff.
My recipe:
1 tsp Green tea powder (matcha) I bought a 1 lb bag for 20$ On amazon which will make way more then 4 drinks so I'm already saving myself a ton.
1 cup silk light vanilla soy milk - you can buy any variety of soy milk you would like but I prefer the light so it's less calories and less sugar.
1/2 cup sugar free vanilla syrup
1 cup ice
Put all in blender, on high until smooth.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Baby steps

Since I'm moving in with the boyfriend in the spring I want to paint the bedroom so it's more like our room.
He agreed, last night after dinner we went to Home Depot and got a ton of purple paint samples.
We literally picked the color in less than one hour!!
It's amazing to be with someone who works with me and we compromise on things and make decisions together.
It's amazing to have a partner who wants to be by your side.
I also bought curtains at Wal-Mart last night.
I got plain black ones.
They are machine washable which is good for when they get dusty.
Also we decided to get black dressers I think so they go with everything that's down the road a little bit though.
We have to now get the paint and eventually Move everything and put a tarp down and get going on this.
But his brothers coming to visit this Saturday for a week or two so it's not going to happen just yet but it will.
Not a rush have time just excited to get it done and make it ours :)
Things will come together, slowly but surely.
Baby steps.

Sunday, November 30, 2014


The kuggle I made for the thanksgiving feast at work was so good, I got a personal and email thank you from the field manager at my job :-D
He said he reminded him of his childhood when he grandma used to make it, and his mom used to try to make it but it was never as good.
But I apparently brought he grandma back by making it so well.
Feels good to cook for people and they like it.
I got several other people from work who never had it before and they really liked it.
The ultimate test was I made one and brought it to my parents for thanksgiving.
My mom said I did a good job and I should make it from now on!!
For those who don't know my mom, she hardly ever gives a compliment.....
And this is her family recipe passed down so it was like I was officially passed the torch of the recipe.
It was a big deal :)
And my brother ate it and didn't complain, he also said I did a good job.
I really thought hell froze over that day.

Friday, November 28, 2014


It's amazing to be with someone who takes your feelings into consideration.
We talked about moving in together in the spring or summer.
I'm really excited & nervous at the same time.
I've never lived outside of my parents house before, so it will be a big adjustment.
I'm sure we will have our ups and downs but the thing I love about him most is how supportive & considerate he is.
Were going to look at paint samples when the stores quiet down.
We compromised and  narrowed it down to purple for the bedroom, just didn't pick the shade of purple yet. :) 

Monday, November 24, 2014

Busy bee

I love and hate the holidays.
I hate the crowds and rude people.
I love spending time with my family and my boyfriend.
His twin brother is going to visit again soon so I know he's going to be happy to spend time with him.
I'm making 3 kuggles this year!
1 for work, 1 for the bf and 1 for mom for thanksgiving :)
Busy bee lately....
Feels good but tiring to be so busy lol

I love my life and the way things are panning out lately it is truly like everything is falling into it's rightful place. <3

Monday, November 10, 2014

Everything happens for a reason

I used to think that maybe what I was getting out of relationships is what I deserved. I thought to myself, well it could be worse it's not like he's a drug addict and he doesn't hit me. But emotional abuse is just as bad if not worse.
The funny thing is, I didn't really understand it was verbal and emotional abuse until after the fact. You don't realize the "jokes" are really him talking down to you, or the passive aggressive behavior that you think is him being sarcastic is really his way of telling you "I can't do this anymore but I'm too much of a coward to tell you to your face".
You think he's just "being a guy" and "guys aren't emotional" or "he's just in a bad mood he doesn't mean it". But he does, and he's an asshole. And nice girls tend to make excuses for too long thinking it's normal for a man to act this way, when it makes him more childish then man.
Trust me ladies, dump him.
Don't waste your time.
He will never change.
he will never be what you need him to be for you, he will never walk by your side and comfort you. He will only make fun of you and make a joke to avoid you being upset.
Strive for the MAN that will wipe your tears and talk to ou like a human.
Strive for the MAN that will cuddle you and let you express how you feel and even if he's not sure how to react, tells you that and makes the effort to think about it and then show you or answer you. Ladies, trust me..... Not all guys are jerks. You jus need to find the right guy, and not out up with his shit.
And also know the signs of a true asshole, and Move on before he emotionally messes you up.
It took me a long time to realize these things.
But this time last year I met the most amazing guy ever, and I love him unconditionally and he loves me equally. We are not just lovers but best friends.
I'm not going to lie we don't get along 100% of the time, but we talk it out and we make it work. We don't go to bed mad at each other.
I promise there are still good guys out there.
Don't let the jerks get you down or make you feel like you don't deserve anything greater then extraordinary love. It does exist with the right person.
I am where I am today because I realized after I had been treated badly for so long what I truly deserve wasn't asking much.... I just took me too long to realize I deserved it all along and we all deserve the love honor and respect of a partner. 

Tuesday, August 5, 2014


I think I'm going to give a whirl and try my hand at writing a book.
I've been told for many years that my life past present an I'm sure the future would make a great book.
The combination of crazy and fucked up things and also the good things that have ever happened to me...

Monday, May 5, 2014

Never eat at Wo hop!!

Saturday was an amazing day in the city. Little Italy, China town, east village.
Amazing day with my bf, his mom and brother.
Brunch in little Italy, amazing.
Dinner however was like a scene from twilight zone.
I made the suggestion to go to world famous, Wo Hop in china town.
I figured it's been there for years I heard amazing things about it and it's world famous.
I don't know how this place became world famous.
Canned vegetables, leftover beef, microwaved chicken, rancid sauces.
Not to mention the fact that the workers are rude as can be.
How can you serve food microwaved, old and canned and expect people to eat it?
Needless to say it turned Into a screaming match in the restaurant because the girl was rude didn't want to take back the food and provide us with quality food.
Unreal, if you ever come to NY-

What a dump.


Thursday, May 1, 2014

Love me

His mom and his brother LOVE me.
His brother thinks it's awesome how many bands I've seen love and were into a lot of the same music. His mom thinks I'm so nice and sweet and loves to see her son so happy :)
His mom also got my a ton of stuff!!! I didnt know what to say I told her she didn't have to  but she insisted. Bracelets, pajamas, purses it was overwhelming but I appreciate everything.
Can't wait to spend the day with everyone on Saturday. I took off Saturday to be able to spend the day with everyone only because I don't get out of work until late before I get over there can only hang out a few hours before I have to o home bc I have work in the am. 

Monday, April 28, 2014


It is the best feeling in the world to wake up next to the love of your life.
Even in rough times we are there for each other, bettering each other and communicating.
Gosh I love him so much, his calm and optimism.
We definitely balance each other out. <3
And he is so helpful with me my family my friends my friends family's, he is just so amazing I really lucked out with him and I got a winner.
I'm meeting his mom and twin brother soon they are coming for a little over a week to visit from out of state. I am excited and nervous all at the same time.
Family is so important to me my family loves him I want his family to love me too.
His dad does but I want them all to like me.
I just need to breathe and be myself.

Monday, April 21, 2014

House Fire

It's crazy how life can in an instant. Went after dinner to bring some clothes to my bfs friend. her house caught fire earlier today and we found out during dinner.
She lost basically everything other then what she was wearing and her son was only in his boxers when this all happened.
I think that must have been so scary for her son, he's only 5 years old.
I did what I could to help her even a little. I feel like if anything happened to my house and I needed the help I would hope my friends and family would be able to help me too.
Something is better then nothing, and I believe in good karma.
luckily no one was hurt, but it looks like its going to be at least 6+ months before they can get back into the house.
damn lint thing from the dryer DESTROYED the house.
again, luckily no one was hurt.
Her son doesn't want to play the "lava game" anymore when we go to his grandmas house because he is afraid it will cause a real fire.
It is hard to explain the concept of reality and pretend to a child.
The mind set of a 5 year old... amazing.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Soda Pong

I played soda pong with an awesome 5 year old boy yesterday.
Over the last 6 months, this little bugger made himself a place in my heart.
He is my boyfriends friends son, and he is seriously the cutest thing ever and he amazes me.
The mind of a child, is so simple and so complex at the same time.
Sometimes I don't think he even know what he's saying, but he says it and its like WHAT where did he learn that?! 
& if you asked him if he knows what that means he giggles and says no.
LOL kids these days.
I also became his wing woman last night he saw a girl at the party he said he wanted to marry her
So before he left I told her quietly he thought she was very pretty and she kissed him goodnight and he looked like he saw a ghost he was so stunned and shocked it was the cutest thing ever.
So I told his dad, his dad asked him what happened he just blushed and didn't say much.
Then whispered to his dad "my baby left" because she went home.
It was the CUTEST thing ever!!!!
I love kids.... cant wait to have my own some day.


Friday, April 4, 2014

sleeps with mice?!

There is a customer who says that mice crawl in his bed at night snuggle up to him
& sleep with him at night and they lick his skin......

Now today he says the mice pee on his feet.

Did I mention no one has ever caught a mouse at this guys house??

& a supervisor went to his house and this old man was in his boxers with boots and a helmet on and a shot gun in his lap waiting to shoot these mice. PTSD??!!

Poor little mice...


Saturday, March 29, 2014


So my boyfriends mom the other day on the phone flat out asked me when sea getting grand babies because she's not getting any younger and wants to enjoy them while she can.
While I'm very flattered by this, I told her I would like to be with her son for at least a year...
Ideally be living together for at least 6 months and I'd also like to be married before popping out kids.
She said I'm a keeper and I have a good head on my shoulders.
I love how his family loves me so much and my family loves him so much.
I've really never experienced love like this before and it is amazing.
I wish this amount of happiness on everyone.
I love how everything is falling together in a positive way. 
My kid would totally be awesome like this, throwing up the horns at an early age.

Friday, March 28, 2014

New outlook on life

It's funny how life works in mysterious ways.
I've never been this happy in my life, new job for the last 6+ months full time making decent money and health insurance, amazing new boyfriend since November.
Really can't complain at all.
Feels amazing to be with someone who's always there for you no matter what and on the same page as you.
Also amazing feeling talking to someone about things that bother you and they take it to heart and visa versa.
He's not only an amazing person communication wise, emotional, physical....
Everything I've ever wanted.
Cooks, cleans, has a full time job, does his own laundry, lives on his own, has a car, affectionate, caring, emotionally on the same page as me.
And it doesn't hurt at all that my entire family loved him right off the bat.
He helps around the house hangs out with me and my family a lot and I do the same with him his friends and family.
He has 2 brothers...
We just have similar goals in life and it's good were on the same page.
Couldn't ask for a better life right now :)